Is it a mole or melanoma?

I have agonized over this one. I know have had three moles removed..Each one my doctor was hesitant but I thought it had changed size or colour. Each time I wait for the biopsy results fearful that it will turn out to be a Breslow 4mm melanoma. Each time (I knock on the desk) has turned out to be an ugly mole.

One of the challenges I have with hypochondria is seperating the fear from the reality. The reality is I have red hair freckles and skin damaged from the suns from vacations in Mexico and extended trips overseas. I have to be vigilant. However I go far beyond this. Like Woody Allen in Hannah and Her Sisters I have mistaken pen marks on my legs from a leaky pen for skin cancer. How can I find a balance here?